Sunday, February 7, 2010

La marca

El día era magnífico, el sol brillaba, el cielo: claro e intenso. La mañana entraba toda por la ventana y se posaba tierna sobre un cuerpo sin vida con expresión de beatitud. Julián había decidido terminar con la angustia. Se encontró este manuscrito a su lado:

Nacer supone el ensanchamiento angustioso y desesperante del mundo; que se nos presenta vacío e inasible. La única fuente de consuelo es entonces el lazo físico con el envoltorio anterior: la seguridad uterina. El violento corte del cordón umbilical es la escición inaugurada, el comienzo del desgarramiento esencial de la conciencia. La vida, desde ese momento, será el incesante intento de recrear las condiciones prenatales, el tiempo, como dice Paz, ahora nos abraza y es el cuchillo de la separación, su paso es el lento beso de la muerte.



Ombligo:
herida primordial
marca de los condenados
cicatriz del paraíso perdido
promesa de la felicidad que se marchó
principio irreparable de la soledad
recoradtorio perenne de la escisión

El reporte de la necropsia de Julián termina con una nota:

Después de buscar meticulosamente por toda el área abdominal, no se encontró evidencia alguna de la existencia de ombligo, ninguna marca, ninguna cicatriz.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Haiku

He aquí el haiku de un sapo atropellado en el invierno de la ciudad de México:

Nasal congestión
feneciente anfibio,
spleen de carbón

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Entre Salvar la Cara y la Catarsis

Es rancia tradición mexicana salvar la cara. En esto México es una extensión tropical de Asia. Impasividad crónica para evitar la confrontación. Decir que sí aunque pienses que nunca lo harás, aceptar invitaciones y no presentarse. Cortesía de corto plazo que pospone la queja y el desacuerdo al terreno estéril de la intimidad solitaria. Ser testigo de arbitrariedad y abuso y sólo externar el desacuerdo y la indignación en el lugar y el momento que no sirven para nada.

Autobuses ensardinados porque nadie es capaz de decir: “Ya no cabe nadie más”. Choferes que abusan de decenas de personas con su implícita autorización: el silencio y la indiferencia. Periodistas que mienten y censuran sin que nadie parpadee. Políticos que roban, prevarican y asesinan con altísimos índices de popularidad porque le “echan ganas, son buena onda, hablan como nosotros o porque son la autoridad”

Sociedad bipolar que va de la catarsis al sopor de la indiferencia y la apatía secular. 300 años de abuso español por varios años de asesinato y barbarie independentista, 40 años de robo, humillación y vejación porfirista por un par de décadas de convulsión homicida y destructora. Setenta años de atole con el dedo más doce del circo de la ineptitud y la burla. ¿Qué sigue señores? ¿Una carnicería nacionalista y demagógica seguida por otro periodo de autocomplacencia y disociación de lo público?

¿No será mejor decir que no, ser claro y hasta grosero?, ¿No será mejor mostrarse en desacuerdo público y ruidoso?, ¿No será mejor volvernos un país de gente que se queja y actúa cuando las cosas no funcionan?, ¿No es mejor decir, no me gusta, no quiero, no voy a ir, eso no es correcto, lo que hace usted me perjudica?

¿O seguiremos aguantándonos hasta perder la razón y asesinarnos porque nos vimos feo?


Poner la mierda donde no se ve no la desaparece, sólo la acumula. Amontonarla solo consigue que un día, por fuerza de evitar confrontarla, tengamos que dar grandes bocanadas de ella, cuando se desborda y nos inunda.

Los invito pues a ser descorteses, decir que no, externar su desacuerdo, criticar y emprender la acción, y si no, a aguantar las consecuencias.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Dismal

jajajajajajajaja esto lo encontre en otro blog y es buenísimo, no paro de reir

 
 

Sent to you by choiropsales via Google Reader:

 
 

via SalvadorLeal.com by Salvador Leal on 9/2/09

No hay más que decir.


 
 

Things you can do from here:

 
 

Friday, October 23, 2009

Legisladores, Movimiento Digito-Sociales y Twitter

Tal parece que la línea de pensamiento de los legisladores y el gobierno federal para gravar el uso de Internet está basada en “Si lo usan pocos y relativamente ricos, entonces es de lujo”. Nada más simplón y falto de inteligencia. Es claro los legisladores no comprenden conceptos básicos como: crecimiento económico, competitividad, marginación o inclusión.

Es innegable que la recaudación de México es la menor en términos comparativos de todos los países de la OCDE y que el petróleo se está agotando. Sin embargo es bastante cínico pretender recaudar con una medida que refuerza y vigoriza las barreras de entrada tanto por el lado de la producción como de la demanda en un mercado donde la concentración es ridícula. El gravar internet basados en que sus usuarios son ricos es soslayar que, únicamente es así porque el precio al consumidor es impuesto por los abusivos gigantes de las telecomunicaciones en México y que el costo del equipo de computo es prohibitivo para la población media.

Sin embargo, este tipo de medidas no faltan en los anales legislativos mexicanos, donde la falta de oficio legislativo y la tendencia al fastrackeo son lugar común. Lo chato de la decisión hace patente lo que es sabido hace mucho y constituye la problemática de fondo: Los órganos legislativos de México están conformados por acarreados fáciles de manipular que buscan vivir del erario público con la única condición de no ejercer jamás su pensamiento crítico ante la orden del coordinador de la bancada.

Los pocos legisladores profesionales que tenemos en México son aquellos que se las han arreglado para ser electos de forma plurinominal por distintos distritos a lo largo del tiempo y que han saltado de cámara en cámara múltiples veces. Lamentablemente los incentivos de estos para confeccionar leyes benéficas para la colectividad son inexistentes e incluso contrarios. Su elección depende de las élites partidistas y de sus cuotas de poder personales al interior de su partido y nunca de la simpatía ciudadana.

La gran mayoría de los legisladores son lo que yo llamaría “Lame Curules”. Sí, aquellos diputados, diputadas, senadores y senadoras que tienen la lengua café de tanto lamerle la curul al coordinador de su bancada o al gobernador de su estado. Su característica más destacada: Falta absoluta de independencia, espíritu crítico y cultura política. Este grupo está constituido por personas cobardes, inescrupulosas y zalameras que creen que la única manera de asegurarse el ascenso social es comerse la mierda de los más poderosos.

También existen los “Mercenarios”. Estos representan todo, menos al bien público. Ellas y ellos, llegan a su curul mediante el pago de facturas políticas que los partidos adquieren con grupos de interés muy específicos, que pueden ser de la más variada índole: Embotelladoras, televisoras, tabacaleras, telefónicas, sindicatos, asociaciones clientelares como el Frente Popular Francisco Villa, la CROC, Antorcha Campesina, etc. Estos vienen siempre con cortísimas y prefabricadas agendas que impulsan durante toda la legislatura por medio del intercambio de sus votos con respecto aquellos temas que los tienen sin cuidado. Es decir que una vez aprobadas las reformas o leyes que les interesan sólo se presentan a las cámaras cuando hay que cobrar o cuando hay que votar, a petición de la Coordinación, por algo que no entienden y sobre todo les vale madres.

Soluciones hay muchas y van desde la acción social, la promoción de la reelección de legisladores hasta la limitación del número de diputados y senadores. Lo primero que tenemos que lograr es sacudirnos la apatía y el cinismo y ponernos a exigir con voz clara y fuerte cuantas claras y representación efectiva a la bola de oportunistas que son, hoy por hoy, nuestros legisladores

Por lo pronto, una muestra clara es el Movimiento Digito-Social en Twitter #internetnecesario

Monday, October 12, 2009

Esperándote, mi ojo te tocaba
entrevista entre brumas de tu furia
Afanoso te buscaba sin buscarlo
encontrandote en el hueco
de mi llaga
Boca sorda
que sus dientes encajaba
Grito ciego
que huidizo y errabundo
macerandome
tremendo desgarraba


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Why I Slept with 1300 Women

Encontré por ahí este artículo que me parece encanntadoramente provocador por su subversiva y perversa lógica. Estoy preparando un post acerca de él, mientras tanto los dejo con él, espero que sean capaces de disfrutarlo como lo he hecho yo:

The affections of a woman have to be won through the peacock dance of success and refinement, or through the deceit of lies. And then sustained for years through many strange virtues, or more lies. The price of love, above all, is monogamy. One man decided to break free. And he slept with over 1,300 women paying them over £115,000. This is his story.


I remember the first time I had sex—I still have the receipt. The girl was alive, as far as I could tell, she was warm and she was better than nothing. She cost me £20.

I was 16 then and I’m 47 now. I have spent 25 years throwing my money and heart at tarts. I have slept with every nationality in every position in every country. From high-class call girls at £1,000 a pop to the meat-rack girls of Soho at £15, I have probably slept with more than 1,300 prostitutes, at a cost of £115,000.

I am a connoisseur of prostitution: I can take its bouquet, taste it, roll it around my mouth, give you the vintage. I have used brothels, saunas, private homes from the Internet and ordered girls to my flat prompt as pizza. While we are on the subject, I have also run a brothel. And I have been a male escort. I wish I was more ashamed. But I’m not. I love prostitutes and everything about them. And I care about them so much I don’t want them to be made legal.

In English brothels you shuffle into a seedy room so dim you can only meet the girl by Braille. But in New York last year I sat on a four-poster bed while 10 girls paraded in front of me one by one, like bowls of sushi on a carousel. “Hi,” they would say, “I’m Tiffany”, “I’m Harmony”, “I’m Michelle”, and I would rise and kiss them. It was so touching, so sweet, so kind. There should always, no matter what, be politeness. It is the way the outside world should work, selfishly but honestly.

The great thing about sex with whores is the excitement and variety. If you say you’re enjoying sex with the same person after a couple of years, you’re either a liar or on something. Of all the sexual perversions, monogamy is the most unnatural. Most of our affairs run the usual course. Fever. Boredom. Trapped. This explains much of the friction in our lives—love being the delusion that one woman differs from another. But with brothels there is always the exhilaration of not knowing what you’re going to get.

The problem with normal sex is that it leads to kissing and pretty soon you’ve got to talk to them. Once you know someone well the last thing you want to do is screw them. I like to give, never to receive; to have the power of the host, not the obligation of the guest. I can stop writing this and within two minutes I can be chained, in the arms of a whore. I know I am going to score and I know they don’t really want me. And within 10 minutes I am back writing. What I hate are meaningless and heartless one-night stands where you tell all sorts of lies to get into bed with a woman you don’t care for. The worst things in life are free. Value seems to need a price tag. How can we respect a woman who doesn’t value herself? When I was young I used to think it wasn’t who you wanted to have sex with that was important, but who you were comfortable with socially and spiritually. Now I know that’s rubbish. It’s who you want to have sex with that’s important. In the past I have deceived the women I have been with. You lie to two people in your life; your partner and the police. Everyone else gets the truth.

Part of me used to enjoy the deception. There was something about the poverty of desire with one’s girlfriend. Sex without betrayal I found meaningless. Without cruelty there was no banquet. Having a secret life is exhilarating. I also have problems with unpaid-for sex. I am repulsed by the animality of the body, by its dirt and decay. The horror for me is the fact that the sublime, the beautiful and the divine are inextricable from basic animal functions. For some reason money mitigates this. Because it is anonymous. What I hate with women generally is the intimacy, the invasion of my innermost space, the slow strangulation of my art. The writer chained for life to the routine of a wage slave and the ritual of copulation. When I love somebody, I feel sort of trapped. Three years ago, I was saved. I found a girl whom I could fall in love with… and sleep with prostitutes with. She sends me to brothels to sleep with women for her. I buy her girls for her birthday and we go to whorehouses together. I am free forever from the damp, dark prison of eternal love.

A prostitute exists outside the establishment. She is either rejected by it or in opposition to it, or both. It takes courage to cross this line. She deserves our respect, not our punishment. And certainly not our pity or prayers.

Of course, the general feeling in this country [the UK] is that the man is somehow exploiting the woman, but I don’t believe this. In fact, the prostitute and the client, like the addict and the dealer, is the most successfully exploitative relationship of all. And the most pure. It is free of ulterior motives. There is no squalid power game. The man is not taking and the woman is not giving. The whore fuck is the purest fuck of all.

Why does a sleazy bastard like me like whores so much? Why pay for it? The problem is that the modern woman is a prostitute who doesn’t deliver the goods. Teasers are never pleasers; they greedily accept presents to seal a contract and then break it. At least the whore pays the flesh that’s haggled for. The big difference between sex for money and sex for free is that sex for money usually costs a lot less.

But it is more than this. What I want is the sensation of sex without the boredom of its conveyance. Brothels make possible contacts of astounding physical intimacy without the intervention of personality. I love the artificial paradise; the anonymity; using money, the most impersonal instrument of intimacy to buy the most personal act of intimacy. Lust over love, sensation over security, and to fall into a woman’s arms without falling into her hands.

Having an instinctive sympathy for those condemned by conventional society, I wanted to cross the line myself. To pay for sex is to strip away the veneer of artifice and civilisation and connect with the true animal nature of man. Some men proudly proclaim that they have never paid for it. Are they saying that money is more sacred than sex?

But one of the main reasons I enjoy prostitutes is because I enjoy breaking the law—another reason I don’t want brothels made legal. There is a charm about the forbidden that makes it desirable. When I have dinner every evening in Soho I always think: isn’t scampi delicious—what a pity it isn’t illegal. I’m sure I am not alone in this. Even Adam himself did not want the apple for the apple’s sake; he wanted it only because it was forbidden.

As for the girls, the argument is that making it legal will somehow make it safer, but Soho has one of the lowest crime rates in the country. Anyway, crime and risk are part of the texture of life. Indeed, Freud tells us: ‘Life loses interest when the highest stake in the game of living, life itself, may not be risked.’ Risk is what separates the good part of life from the tedium.

I decided to ask my Claudia, my favourite prostitute. I first spotted her in the street in Knightsbridge ten years ago and was so taken by her haunted beauty that I decided to follow her. There was an air of great quality about Claudia. The faces of English girls look as if there is not enough material to go round. They have thin lips and papery eyelids, box jawbones, prominent Adam’s apples and withered hearts. Claudia looks Mediterranean—her lips are full and curly, her nostrils flared, her eyes black and as big as saucers.

She walked and I stalked all the way to Soho and down Brewer Street. No. No way. She couldn’t be! She turned, and walked into a brothel. I couldn’t believe it. I could fuck Raquel Welch for £25.

When I ask if she wants prostitution legalised, she reacts violently: “No way! I tried to take a regular job a few months ago. After tax and national insurance I was left with practically nothing. So I came back here. On a good day here I can take £500. I don’t have a pimp, so after paying the overheads and the maid I’ve got more than enough.” There you are. Income tax has made more liars out of the British people than prostitution.

I know a little bit about the business side. Some years ago I became a madam and a male escort. I turned one of the rooms in my flat in Shepherd Market into a knocking shop and joined an escort agency. I went into prostitution looking for love, not money. That said, I always took cash. The women wanted company, someone willing to please at the midnight hour, and straight sex. It was nerve-wracking wondering if I was going to be able to get it up or get on, but at least I had a valid reason for liking my lovers—they paid me. I didn’t care if someone called me a whore and a pimp.

So you see, I have always been a prostitute by sympathy. As for the rest of society, prostitution is the mirror of man, and man has never been in danger of becoming bogged down in beauty. So why don’t we leave it alone? Or learn to love it, like me? Sex is one of the most wholesome, spiritual and natural things money can buy. And like all games, it becomes more interesting when played for money. And even more so when it is illegal.

Hookers and drunks instinctively understand that common sense is the enemy of romance. Will the bureaucrats and politicians please leave us some unreality. I know what you are thinking. That it’s all very well for people like me to idealise whores and thieves; to think that the street is somehow noble and picturesque; I have never had to live there. But so what? One day I will. Until such time, I have to pay for it. How else would someone young, rich and handsome get sex in this city? Yes, yes, I know. Prostitution is obscene, debasing and disgraceful. The point is, so am I.